Crying

In a similar manner, you can say that the same lesson can be derived from the verse: “Though he know it not, yet is he guilty, and shall bear his iniquity” (Leviticus 5:17). When Rabbi Akiva came to this verse he would cry. He said: And if with regard to one who intended to eat permitted fat, and forbidden fat mistakenly came up in his hand, the Torah states: “Though he know it not, yet is he guilty, and shall bear his iniquity,” all the more so is this true for one who intended to eat forbidden fat and forbidden fat came up in his hand.

(8) The portion read by the king: How so? At the conclusion of the first day of the festival (Sukkot) in the eighth [year], at the end of the seventh year, they made a wooden platform in the Temple court, and he sits upon it, as it is said, “At the end of seven years, in the set time” etc (Deuteronomy 31:10). The sexton takes a Torah scroll and passes it to the head of the synagogue, the head of the synagogue passes it to the deputy, who passes it to the high priest, and the high priest passes it to the king and the king stands and receives it, but reads it while sitting. King Agrippa stood and received it and read standing, and the sages praised him. When he reached, “You shall not place a foreigner over you” (ibid 17:15) his eyes ran with tears. They said to him, “Fear not, Agrippas, you are our brother, you are our brother, you are our brother!” He reads from the beginning of “These are the words” (ibid 1:1) until the Shema (ibid 6:4-9), and the Shema, and “It will come to pass if you hear” (ibid 11:13-21), and “You shall surely tithe” (ibid 14:22-29), and “When you have finished tithing” (ibid 26:12-15) and the portion of the king (ibid 17:14-20) and the blessings and curses (ibid 28), until he finishes all the section. The blessings that the high priest blesses, the king recites, except that he substitutes one for the festivals instead of one for the pardon of sin.

(1) RABBI ELIEZER AND THE TORAH
THE following befell Rabbi Eliezer, son of Hyrḳanos. His father had many ploughmen who were ploughing arable ground, whereas he was ploughing a stony plot; he sat down and wept. His father said to him: O my son! Why dost thou weep? Art thou perchance distressed because thou dost plough a stony plot? In the past thou hast ploughed a stony plot, now behold thou shalt plough with us arable soil. He sat down on the arable ground and wept. His father said to him: But why dost thou weep? Art thou perchance distressed because thou art ploughing the arable land? He replied to him: No. (Hyrḳanos) said to him: Why dost thou weep? He answered him: I weep only because I desire to learn Torah. (Hyrḳanos) said to him: Verily thou art twenty-eight years old—yet dost thou desire to learn Torah? Nay, go, take thee a wife and beget sons and thou wilt take them to the school. He fasted two weeks not tasting || anything, until Elijah— may he be remembered for good—appeared to him and said to him: Son of Hyrḳanos! Why dost thou weep? He replied to him: Because I desire to learn Torah. (Elijah) said to him: If thou desirest to learn Torah get thee up to Jerusalem to Rabban Jochanan ben Ẓakkai. He arose and went up to Jerusalem to R. Jochanan ben Ẓakkai and sat down and wept. (R. Jochanan) said to him: Why dost thou weep? He answered him: Because I wish to learn Torah. (R. Jochanan) said to him: Whose son art thou? But he did not tell him.

And Rava said: The fiery ones of the rabbis, they are like a seed under a hard clod of earth [that is softened by the rain or snow and sprouts], for when he sprouts, he sprouts.

And Rava said: When the fiery ones of the rabbis are angry, it is the Torah that makes him angry, as it is said [Jer 23:29], "Is not my word like fire? says ha-Shem.".

And Rav Ashi said: Any Torah scholar who is not as hard as iron [barzel] is not a Torah scholar, as it is said [Jer 23:29], "and like a hammer that smashes a rock."...

Ravina said, Even so, a person must teach himself [to act] with gentleness, as it is said [Koh 11:10], "And remove anger from your heart [and put away evil from your flesh]."

"The fiery ones of the rabbis" -- a hot young man (as is explained in Tractate Beitzah 7a). An older scholar is not called "fiery", even if he is called one of the rabbis.

"for when he sprouts, he sprouts" -- that once the sprouting begins, it ascends higher and higher; so it is for a wise student, that once their reputation begins to spread, it grows and rises.

"it is the Torah that makes him angry" -- because he has a broad heart in the midst of his studies, and what resides there is more than the rest of humanity. From this we learn that a scholar must be judged [leniently] with a presumption of good intentions.

"like fire" -- that heats his entire body

"iron" -- short-tempered ones, hard like iron.

The Gemara asks: But is there crying before the Holy One, Blessed be He? Didn’t Rav Pappa say: There is no sadness before the Holy One, Blessed be He, as it is stated: “Honor and majesty are before Him; strength and gladness are in His place” (I Chronicles 16:27)? The Gemara responds: This is not difficult. This statement, that God cries, is referring to the innermost chambers, where He can cry in secret, whereas this statement, that He does not cry, is referring to the outer chambers.