Every human being has had a moment in which he sensed a mysterious waiting for him. Meaning is found in responding to the demand, meaning if found in sending the demand. There is a question that follows me wherever I turn. What is expected of me? What is demanded of me?
We learned in a mishnah that Rabbi Eliezer says: Repent one day before your death. Rabbi Eliezer’s students asked him: But does a person know the day on which he will die? He said to them: All the more so this is a good piece of advice, and one should repent today lest he die tomorrow; and by following this advice one will spend his entire life in a state of repentance. And King Solomon also said in his wisdom: “At all times your clothes should be white, and oil shall not be absent from upon your head” (Ecclesiastes 9:8), meaning that a person always needs to be prepared.
a. Have you ever experienced the sense that you are being asked a question like like the ones Heschel asks? What is challenging about asking questions? What emotions do they evoke?
b. Have you had an experience, or have you witnessed in a loved one, closeness to death bringing greater clarity?
רבי שמעון בן פזי רמי כתיב (בראשית א, טז) ויעש אלהים את שני המאורות הגדולים וכתיב את המאור הגדול ואת המאור הקטן אמרה ירח לפני הקב"ה רבש"ע אפשר לשני מלכים שישתמשו בכתר אחד אמר לה לכי ומעטי את עצמך
אמרה לפניו רבש"ע הואיל ואמרתי לפניך דבר הגון אמעיט את עצמי אמר לה לכי ומשול ביום ובלילה אמרה ליה מאי רבותיה דשרגא בטיהרא מאי אהני אמר לה זיל לימנו בך ישראל ימים ושנים אמרה ליה יומא נמי אי אפשר דלא מנו ביה תקופותא דכתיב (בראשית א, יד) והיו לאותות ולמועדים ולימים ושנים זיל ליקרו צדיקי בשמיך (עמוס ז, ב) יעקב הקטן שמואל הקטן (שמואל א יז, יד) דוד הקטן
§ Rabbi Shimon ben Pazi raises a contradiction between two verses. It is written: “And God made the two great lights” (Genesis 1:16), and it is also written in the same verse: “The greater light to rule the day, and the lesser light to rule the night,” indicating that only one was great. Rabbi Shimon ben Pazi explains: When God first created the sun and the moon, they were equally bright. Then, the moon said before the Holy Blessed One: Master of the Universe, is it possible for two kings to serve with one crown? One of us must be subservient to the other. God therefore said to her, i.e., the moon: If so, go and diminish yourself.
She said before God: Master of the Universe, since I said a correct observation before You, must I diminish myself? God said to her: As compensation, go and rule both during the day along with the sun and during the night. She said: What greatness is there in shining alongside the sun? What use is a candle in the middle of the day? God said to her: Go; let the Jewish people count the days and years with you, and this will be your greatness. She said: But the Jewish people will count with the sun as well, as it is impossible that they will not count seasons with it, as it is written: “And let them be for signs, and for seasons, and for days and years” (Genesis 1:14). God said to her: Go; let righteous people be named after you. Just as you are called the lesser [hakatan] light, there will be Ya’akov HaKatan, i.e., Jacob our forefather (see Amos 7:2), Shmuel HaKatan the Rabbinic sage, and David HaKatan, i.e., King David (see I Samuel 17:14).
a. What are the Rabbis trying to communicate about power and agency?
b. If you were the moon, what would you do? Have you ever been the sun or the moon in a particular relationship? What was that experience like for you?
(15) A man came upon him wandering in the fields. The man asked him, “What are you looking for?” (16) He answered, “I am looking for my brothers. Could you tell me where they are pasturing?” (17) The man said, “They have gone from here, for I heard them say: Let us go to Dothan.” So Joseph followed his brothers and found them at Dothan.
A man came upon him — This was the angel Gabriel (Genesis Rabbah 84:14) as it is said, (Daniel 9:21) and the man Gabriel” (Midrash Tanchuma, Vayeshev 2:3).
a. In what ways do the angels in the texts above change the course of events? Why is that important?
b. When, in your life, was your course altered by an encounter with an angel? Do you think it's possible that you are or have been someone else's angel?
c. It is through service that we can connect to our purpose in the world. Describe an act of service-- big or small-- that you found surprisingly meaningful.
(ג) עֲשָׂרָה נִסְיוֹנוֹת נִתְנַסָּה אַבְרָהָם אָבִינוּ עָלָיו הַשָּׁלוֹם וְעָמַד בְּכֻלָּם, לְהוֹדִיעַ כַּמָּה חִבָּתוֹ שֶׁל אַבְרָהָם אָבִינוּ עָלָיו הַשָּׁלוֹם:
(3) With ten trials was Abraham, our father (may he rest in peace), tried, and he withstood them all; to make known how beloved was Abraham, our father (peace be upon him).
אך שצריך כל אחד ואחד לבוא לידי נסיונות אף שמקבל אלקותו במחשבתו כנ״ל מכל מקום מנסין את כל אדם בעשר נסיונות כמו שאמרו באברהם עשרה נסיונות נתנסה אברהם אבינו ועמד בכולם והנסיון הוא שמסלקין ממנו ההתקשרות שהיה קשור בהשם יתברך על ידי הדעת בעת שבא לידי נסיון ונשאר אצלו רק הבחירה כי לולא זה לא היה נקרא נסיון כי בודאי על ידי ההתקשרות יאחז צדיק דרכו ועל ידי זה נתמעט הדעת אצלו לא סילוק הדעת ממש ואם עומד בנסיון על ידי שנקבע בלבו מקודם כשהיה לו דעת רחב.
However, each and every person must come into trial – even if he receives God’s Godliness into his thoughts as we have explained above – nevertheless each person is tested with ten trials, as they said about Abraham, “Abraham was tested with ten trials and withstood them all” (Mishnah, Avot 5:3). And the trial is that they strip him of the connection with which he was connected to Blessed God through awareness. At the moment when he comes into the trial, only free will remains with him; for without this it would not be called a trial. For certainly through the connection the tzaddik holds his path (Job 17:9), and in this way his awareness is diminished (though not removed entirely) and if he withstands the trial, it is because his heart carries the imprint of the expansive awareness he had before then.
a. Are you willing to share an experience that felt to you like a trial, a true test of your character?
b. How does the Maor Einayim explain the experience of a trial? Does that resonate with yours? How?
c. The Maor Einayim suggests that we may come through our trials with a broader vision and better connection. Has a trial of your own brought you to a place of greater breadth and expansiveness?
Practice asking yourself at the start of each day, how can I be of service today? What can I do today to help another person? Just the questions will awaken you to the many daily opportunities we all have to do something small, even seemingly insignificant, for another person.