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Cantor Heather Batchelor 11/7/18
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Toldot: Listening to Our Kishkes Cantor Heather Batchelor 11/7/18
(כא) וַיֶּעְתַּ֨ר יִצְחָ֤ק לַֽיהוָה֙ לְנֹ֣כַח אִשְׁתּ֔וֹ כִּ֥י עֲקָרָ֖ה הִ֑וא וַיֵּעָ֤תֶר לוֹ֙ יְהוָ֔ה וַתַּ֖הַר רִבְקָ֥ה אִשְׁתּֽוֹ׃ (כב) וַיִּתְרֹֽצֲצ֤וּ הַבָּנִים֙ בְּקִרְבָּ֔הּ וַתֹּ֣אמֶר אִם־כֵּ֔ן לָ֥מָּה זֶּ֖ה אָנֹ֑כִי וַתֵּ֖לֶךְ לִדְרֹ֥שׁ אֶת־יְהוָֽה׃ (כג) וַיֹּ֨אמֶר יְהוָ֜ה לָ֗הּ שְׁנֵ֤י גיים [גוֹיִם֙] בְּבִטְנֵ֔ךְ וּשְׁנֵ֣י לְאֻמִּ֔ים מִמֵּעַ֖יִךְ יִפָּרֵ֑דוּ וּלְאֹם֙ מִלְאֹ֣ם יֶֽאֱמָ֔ץ וְרַ֖ב יַעֲבֹ֥ד צָעִֽיר׃ (כד) וַיִּמְלְא֥וּ יָמֶ֖יהָ לָלֶ֑דֶת וְהִנֵּ֥ה תוֹמִ֖ם בְּבִטְנָֽהּ׃
(21) Isaac pleaded with the LORD on behalf of his wife, because she was barren; and the LORD responded to his plea, and his wife Rebekah conceived. (22) But the children struggled in her womb, and she said, “If so, why do I exist?” She went to inquire of the LORD, (23) and the LORD answered her, “Two nations are in your womb, Two separate peoples shall issue from your body; One people shall be mightier than the other, And the older shall serve the younger.” (24) When her time to give birth was at hand, there were twins in her womb.
Though the Midrash (Bereshit Rabbah 62:6) debates the motivation for the struggle within Rebekah womb, it never questions its existence. This shows us that the Rabbis understood Rebekah's need to respond to the experience of her body as valid and justified. In response her bodily experience Rebekah searches out (lidrosh et Adonai) or inquires an answer from Hashem.
  1. How do you relate to emotions or sensations that arise in your body? Are you more inclined to "inquire" of them, ignore them or push them away?
  2. What would "inquiring" look like for you?
  3. How might you benefit from this process of inquiry?
  4. What barriers or challenges exist to the process of inquiry?
It's good for a person to accustom himself to reviving himself with a nigun, because nigun is a powerful and mighty tool, and it has the great strength to awaken a person and point his heart towards the Blessed Name. Even one who doesn't know how to play music, can sing to himself and through that revive himself. For the elevation of a nigun cannot be measured.
--R. Nachman of Breslov, Sihot HaRan 273